Have a look at this: http://thehealthylivinglounge.com/2008/03/25/what-do-you-really-really-really-want/
You have to have 3 reallys apparently! It was a very interesting post...makes ya think!
So what do I really really really want? Not what should I want....what does my gut say?
- acceptance....my acceptance of me
- a cleaner house
- peace internally
- another baby
- more balance in my life, less rushing...less STUFF to do
- to be able to live on what money we have and stop racking up credit
- to stop living according to others and shoulds....to not be scared of letting go of other people
So maybe i should focus...could focus...on these things, and put my energy into the life i really really really want :-)
Monday, May 26, 2008
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Being me
Quick thought....if my children see me being me....then they will hopefully be more confident to be themselves. Wow!
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
My fault?
Well I am struggling a little the moment and I just wanted to say:
Why is it always my fault?
ie, i'm not good enough, i don't work hard enough, i'm not a loving enough parent or a good enough wife etc etc...it always comes back to being some failure of mine.
Well i'm here to tell myself - IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT!
It's just the way it is. The world is the way it is, i am the (imperfect) way i am and shit happens - sorry :-). The good news is I can stop struggling on the spot or looking back or wondering why and take action. I can always take action, whatever, whoever and whyever.
Why is it always my fault?
ie, i'm not good enough, i don't work hard enough, i'm not a loving enough parent or a good enough wife etc etc...it always comes back to being some failure of mine.
Well i'm here to tell myself - IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT!
It's just the way it is. The world is the way it is, i am the (imperfect) way i am and shit happens - sorry :-). The good news is I can stop struggling on the spot or looking back or wondering why and take action. I can always take action, whatever, whoever and whyever.
the kids
Another frustrating morning getting off to school/kindy!
I have realised that I expect the kids to:
- always listen to me
- do what i say immediately
- do it properly
- do it quietly
- do it quickly
- be quiet
- be still
- be nice
- not argue
- have initiative
- think ahead....
ie behave like perfect adults....
hmmm....not even adults behave like perfect adults!!
I expect waaaaay too much obviously. I have just realised that my job as a parent is to teach them how to be reasonable people (they won't ever be perfect) and the reason God invented maternal/paternal love is so that we won't KILL THEM!!!
Parenting requires so much time and patience, and i need to stop making it hard for myself :-).
I have realised that I expect the kids to:
- always listen to me
- do what i say immediately
- do it properly
- do it quietly
- do it quickly
- be quiet
- be still
- be nice
- not argue
- have initiative
- think ahead....
ie behave like perfect adults....
hmmm....not even adults behave like perfect adults!!
I expect waaaaay too much obviously. I have just realised that my job as a parent is to teach them how to be reasonable people (they won't ever be perfect) and the reason God invented maternal/paternal love is so that we won't KILL THEM!!!
Parenting requires so much time and patience, and i need to stop making it hard for myself :-).
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